The next few days were a nightmare because you really get used to the pitter patter of little dog feet all over the house. They followed me everywhere. As soon as I wake in the morning, Teyla would be up at my side nudging me with her nose wanting a belly rub. And she just wasn't there. And there were so many reminders of that...
- Little dog toys on the floor where she left them.
- Finding tennis balls under the couch weeks later.
- Untouched water and food bowls sitting in their little spot on their pink mat in the corner of the family room.
- Driving past the animal hospital where she died on the way to scouts
Only 1 week after Teyla died, the kids and I crossed paths unexpectedly with a litter of goldendoodle puppies. A little black one with this scruffy little white patch a fur on her chest and on all 4 paws caught my eye.
I'm sure she was an impulse choice. My arms ached for Teyla. She was 9 weeks old and laid in my arms like a baby. She has this cute white little hair at the tip of her tail. She doesn't shed which is a requirement in my house with Ben's asthma and allergies. I'm not sure I was ready for her and I even walked away for a day...
Joe went to meet her and the decision was cemented. We welcomed our new family member home on March 22nd. "Ellie" was a 9 pound fur ball - a goldendoodle like Teyla who wasn't golden at all and could definitely not be a lookalike replacement of my sweet Teyla. She would be her own dog.
It's been easier on me to have a new puppy in the house. It just isn't so quiet. Of course, I do often miss my well trained Teyla! But Ellie will get there. It just takes time and reminders to myself that the puppy stage will pass. She will be housebroken. She won't dig holes forever. She won't nip at us forever. There was a time I remember well of wanting to send Teyla back! With hard work comes rewards!
Besides, how can I resist my little shadow who follows my every move?
Dogs just help you deal with life's curve balls. And with Alex's A1C not so hot at the most recent appointment and slews of crazy highs and a few crazy lows, I need the distraction!